Sannav, Thank you so much for responding to my question. I know sort of how you are feeling. I know I am a starseed! I mean i havent been in touch with anyone to ask them and be for sure for sure, it is just something I feel! Without a doubt. ACTUALLY  this is the first forum i have ever been on , first time i have said anything and i know i did t say much, it is just a huge worry hanging around me! I have always known the covid shot , NO WAY! i would tell everyone and anyone JUST DONT DO IT and then my mom got it because she was so worried and then my sister and then my brother in law and then my boyfriend. On and on  i live and work with my mom and sister and they would go on and on all the ti e like begging me to get it , if not for me then for them. I dont know so i did it ramdonly one day , and then after they make you sit and wait for which felt like forever just thinking  omg what did i just do??  Soooooo stupid. Ahhh . Anyways not even a week later guess who tested positive for stupid covid... me! Anyways all i know is i need to lifestyle change big time! I have habbits and addictions so hard to change but i guess if you want it all you have to do is go get it. I stopped eating meat! Im trying to stop smoking ciggs and vapes. These vapes are the worst!! Just when im starting to feel as you mentioned in dark energy and a little hopeless what helps me is looking up to the sky. I would say going and bejng i  nature but i dont like going out  very much anymore i dont like to be around people too much anymore if i could be invisible id be outside more. So i look up to the sky from my window and i know they are there we are all us. We are one!