I don't know if I'm a starseed, I am not sure what it stands for in its entirety. But I do consider myself of alien origin. At some point I came here and got mixed up with the energies, and maybe I've gotten stuck since then. I was very spiritual for years, but then fell off the wagon after my spiritual emergencies were diagnosed as mental illness, and I ended up on antipsychotics. I pretty much gave up on the idea of finding my true self after years of trying to get off the antipsychotics, and being always put back in the psych ward and back on meds.

I took the first dose of the vaccine. I am a very fragile, weak-ish person, and the childhood programming runs deep. That's all I can give as a reason as to why I took it. I actually wanted to, and did not receive much information from spiritual teachers at that time that would have suggested it would be best not to.

After that I have experienced my heart closing, inability to connect authentically with others, returning to my old judgemental small mind, negativity, and sometimes loads of dark/black energy just pouring into my being. I have felt awful thoughts about others inside of myself. Judging by this I assume it is only getting worse, and I have little idea how I will end up, if this will kill me prematurely or if I will simply end up evil.

I would be interested in knowing what happens to the soul of the vaccinated. Do I get to try again in a future life?