An Explanation and Apology

Crystal Dragon · 2021-08-01 02:00:35

I want to apologize to the community in general, and specifically to Grivehn, Robert, and Dark Owl. If one goes back and looks at comment histories of certain parties(none of the three names I mentioned, to clarify, but others who's names I did not say in this post), you will see they accused myself and Ymarsakar of certain things with no provocation, in other words, threw the first stone. They received a warning, but despite this and multiple times more of the same comments, they have not been removed. They more or less deserved the words I gave them, but the community did not deserve the detunement in vibes from me lowering myself in the mud to do that.

I'd been letting it go for a long time and nothing was done about it, but that was really just a trigger for deeper underlying frustrations. Ymarsakar could care less because he's gangsta. I'm still semi Padawan, and I still get triggered sometimes. I realized I have been making myself bitter worrying too much about people's behavior on an internet forum, because inner work is hitting some walls and it's annoying, so the ego looks for something or someone to blame. Instead of lashing out, I gotta power through the self work.

Full disclosure(guess there's a pun in there somewhere): A big thing is wanting to make some sort of direct contact with friendly ET's myself, and being frustrated about whatever is still holding that back. I probably experienced some contact stuff as a child, but it is not in conscious accessible memory. I have seen craft fly by at night and stuff, but to me, that is like looking through a glass ceiling. I feel like being in a cage. People who make direct contact, telepathic and otherwise, break out of that cage, and through that glass ceiling.

That is what I want for me, and that is the future, the next phase for starseeds. Each individual in direct contact with someone on the other end, be that a Taygetan or other ally. Faster and more direct flow of information, each person contributing a piece to the puzzle. Do not get me wrong, I really appreciate what Gosia and others that are honest do, but it is like waiting for information to trickle down while looking through a glass ceiling.

The people such as Gosia who make the direct contact and disseminate the information are being charitable and have an egalitarian mindset. They have no intention of imposing any kind of hierarchy. Despite that intent, what happens is a pyramid. A hierarchy not in intent, but in effect. An inefficient flow of information from a small point at the top downward. A lot of people who turn the information into dogma without understanding what it really means, are reinforcing this pyramidal structure by refusing to be their own authority, to do inner work, and to try to establish direct contact with ET's. I no longer wish to just be a secondhand recipient of information, even though its good information.

I appreciate the Taygeta crew and allies. I appreciate Gosia and team, from CA and PK. I still appreciate this community, for what it's worth. I won't be viciously attacking anyone's double standards anymore or confronting trolls directly with angry rants and insults. I'm simply going to focus on inner work and my own pursuits, and what posting I do, I will do my best to make it supportive, proactive, and of high vibration.

Thanks for understanding.

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Raviolli · 2021-08-01 08:56:17

Crystal Dragon wrote:

That is what I want for me, and that is the future, the next phase for starseeds. Each individual in direct contact with someone on the other end, be that a Taygetan or other ally. Faster and more direct flow of information, each person contributing a piece to the puzzle. Do not get me wrong, I really appreciate what Gosia and others that are honest do, but it is like waiting for information to trickle down while looking through a glass ceiling.
The people such as Gosia who make the direct contact and disseminate the information are being charitable and have an egalitarian mindset. They have no intention of imposing any kind of hierarchy. Despite that intent, what happens is a pyramid. A hierarchy not in intent, but in effect. An inefficient flow of information from a small point at the top downward. A lot of people who turn the information into dogma without understanding what it really means, are reinforcing this pyramidal structure by refusing to be their own authority, to do inner work, and to try to establish direct contact with ET's. I no longer wish to just be a secondhand recipient of information, even though its good information.
I appreciate the Taygeta crew and allies. I appreciate Gosia and team, from CA and PK. I still appreciate this community, for what it's worth. I won't be viciously attacking anyone's double standards anymore or confronting trolls directly with angry rants and insults. I'm simply going to focus on inner work and my own pursuits, and what posting I do, I will do my best to make it supportive, proactive, and of high vibration.
Thanks for understanding.

Couldn't agree more, really put the spotlight on the ideas I had on the back of my mind. Thanks for sharing brother

Crystal Dragon · 2021-08-01 14:43:18

Anyway, just airing some frustrations without swearing at people. I understand it's a rough situation from every side of the fence. Seems we all have nothing but shit choices, the lesser of two evils but not much good. Hence the need for timeline manipulation, lol. We need to force there to be a third option that's actually good. We need to cheat a cheater system right back.

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Azirael Alcyone · 2021-08-01 17:07:33

I am hoping for some type of roadmap or practical guidance from our galactic family. The truth is that besides working on my own growth I don’t know what to do with the larger scale problems, and whether any of that helps. Like Swaruu has said this puzzle is too much for humans to solve on their own. Pieces of intel help to connect the dots but what are we supposed to do with them. I think it’s rather disappointing if this earthly life proves to be just a roller coaster ride without a grander purpose.

Crystal Dragon · 2021-08-01 17:14:24

Azirael Alcyone wrote:

I am hoping for some type of roadmap or practical guidance from our galactic family. The truth is that besides working on my own growth I don’t know what to do with the larger scale problems, and whether any of that helps. Like Swaruu has said this puzzle is too much for humans to solve on their own. Pieces of intel help to connect the dots but what are we supposed to do with them. I think it’s rather disappointing if this earthly life proves to be just a roller coaster ride without a grander purpose.

Excellent points that mirror my sentiments. It's good to know the problems, but then we need to find solutions. Working on personal growth is good, and should be a given for everyone. Should be, but not everyone wants to. Even then, it feels pointless and frustrating just to work on oneself while everything else falls apart. Too much stress. Sometimes, we need to be doing something proactive to affect our circumstances instead of just accepting and internalizing everything.

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Ymarsakar · 2021-08-01 17:59:15

I have been getting recommendations on ytube for both gosia and teal swan content. I will collate them together for internal work guides.

I do not feel this desire to contact others. If i need said contact, it comes telepathically via a download. Then i have to expand and unzip the download then analyze or integrate it.

I was not even aware of the swaruu forums until someone pointed it out. And i felt no higher spirit telling me to join.

I do not see what i do not see. It is a useful skill from the higher realms where thought manifests reality.

Inability to control thoughts and emotions, causes disturbances in the force.

I have long years of experience communicating with humans online. Far more than taygetans and all swaruus combined.

I have also climbed the ladder from 1, so while i understand the m45 pov, i also understand the lowest human pov.

Diplomats and representatives, let alone prime speakers, have high standards in comparison to others. We cannot emote as freely as seen on twitter and internet.

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Crystal Dragon · 2021-08-01 19:09:44

Feeling in trapped in a limbo between a human world I can't relate to that's crumbling anyway, and an E.T. world that I would like to experience but is behind a glass ceiling, is a lonely, boring, and demoralizing experience. I do not desire to spend my whole incarnation that way. My highest excitement is like an ambassador or contact specialist, that can move between the worlds and be a bridge, instead of just feeling like I'm trapped in limbo, scorned by both worlds.

Azirael Alcyone · 2021-08-01 20:54:31

Crystal Dragon wrote:

it feels pointless and frustrating just to work on oneself while everything else falls apart. Too much stress. Sometimes, we need to be doing something proactive to affect our circumstances instead of just accepting and internalizing everything.

I hear you, Crystal Dragon.

When I wake up in the pod I’m going to do everything in my power to support our starseeds who face the unknown all by themselves in this loneliest job on the planet and, dare I say, the most poorly supervised.

No wonder they won’t send anyone in anymore. You have to be slightly out of your mind even thinking about it.

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Vega · 2021-08-01 21:23:23

Based on your previous posts I knew you were going to do this and I for one really appreciate you doing this. And I don't know if you are a semi Padawan, you are probably a full on D'Jedi at least in your essence and it's just the stupid veil that messes things up Maybe you are a self-suppressed self-limited D'Jedi. And the issues are just local temporary issues of your human biosuit.

Crystal Dragon wrote:

I'm simply going to focus on inner work and my own pursuits, and what posting I do, I will do my best to make it supportive, proactive, and of high vibration.

I too am going to step back and re-examine my behavior since I started interacting here, and will see where I need to improve and where I can step up my game and do better.

And also the primary thing is the information and the conversations between the crew on the ground with the crew in orbit. I think it was ro that said somewhere that the community aspect is secondary, and I agree, it is important but the really important thing is the information and the disclosure and the conversations between the crew on the ground and the crew in orbit.

And that information is always super, and the best on the planet in what they specialize and focus on, and that's the important thing we need to keep in mind and prioritize. And not get distracted by the usual internet drama in the forum or the YouTube comments or our fb groups. And I have faith that that too will get resolved eventually. I have seen some great things happening too, it's just the negative stuff is usually louder and noisier.

And if you are going to have direct contact it is going to happen in the right timing and it hasn't happened yet probably because either you are not ready yet or maybe the collective is not ready for that. I too sometimes think that I am ready for some things, and I ask why they aren't happening yet, and I am impatient, but then later I realize that I am totally not ready. Lol

I try to not be too impatient and I trust my higher self and my spirit guides team. And just follow my intuition and focus on my inner work and on acting on my guidance as best as I can and I know everything will happen at the right timing when I am truly ready and when the conditions on the planet allow for it.

Stay strong everyone and be kind and forgiving and loving to yourself.

<3

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Vega · 2021-08-02 00:58:59

Crystal Dragon wrote:

Feeling in trapped in a limbo between a human world I can't relate to that's crumbling anyway, and an E.T. world that I would like to experience but is behind a glass ceiling, is a lonely, boring, and demoralizing experience. I do not desire to spend my whole incarnation that way. My highest excitement is like an ambassador or contact specialist, that can move between the worlds and be a bridge, instead of just feeling like I'm trapped in limbo, scorned by both worlds.

Crystal Dragon, this transcript has so many relevant amazing guidance from our big little sis.
I think this may be the perfect time for you to revisit this transcript.

I love this transcript. I think we should all read it again carefully. And I'll just quote the entire transcript.

Starseeds: Search for Stellar Identity and Roots (Extraterrestrial Communication - Yazhi Swaruu)
https://swaruu.org/transcripts/starseed … zhi-swaruu
(bold emphasis mine)

Gosia: People often ask: I don't remember who I am. What can we tell them?
Yazhí: You must take responsibility. Who you think and feel you are is who you are. You do not need someone to come and tell you who you are, to confirm anything for you. Who you are is something you must develop for yourself.
You don't need to remember it, just to know it. And from there proceed. What you feel, what you imagine, what you create in your mind and in your heart, is.
And it is because this is how everything works. Imagination is everything. Not empty fantasy. Creation of universes.
Wanting to remember is natural, but it is not necessary. That is one of the self-imposed tests of being on Earth. You feel like you need to know who you are based on what you were. Without seeing that everything that once was you, is what shapes you today. So you already carry it within you, it is part of you, always. You do not need memories, however interesting they might seem for you. Because it is external corroboration to yourself, giving up your power. To think that perhaps it is not so, that you are only a sack of meat with rickety consciousness generated by chemicals in a biological brain. With causal and deterministic life. And not an original, immortal being capable of everything.
Your memories will come to you when the time comes, or not. But you should know that they don't matter. What you imagine today is what you will be, your creation, your future. It is never empty imagination. It is where you are going. There is no fantasy and reality. That´s limiting concepts of low densities, imposed with the purpose to control. Fantasy and reality is the same, just that one you are living, the other creates what will be lived.

Gosia: How can one free oneself from the sadness of a lifetime?
Yazhí: Releasing Karma. Karma is released in many ways. The main one is with knowledge. Leave karma behind. Karma is something you decide to carry, not something imposed on you. You can simply decide not to carry it. But you must understand that at some level you have decided to carry it or else you would not have it. You must then understand why you have decided to carry that.
More often than not, it is because of experience, because of the spiritual advancement that it can give you. But it must have an end. Not remaining in the same cyclically. Not remaining in the wheel of samsara forever. It is part of the matrix game. Everything is duality. To leave karma behind you must understand that everything is a whole, there are no contrasts, everything is unified. There is no one-sided mountain, they are both mountain. (Alan Watts). Stop fighting the idea that something is "bad" because they are all views based on prejudice. Full integration. Be holographic.
There is no such thing as intrinsically "wrong" because everything is experience and the best teachings and the best advancement comes mainly from the hardest experiences. Of the ones we call erroneous. We had those experiences for what they would leave us. They are only experiences, you do not have to carry blame, much less incarnation after incarnation. You carry it because you want so.

Gosia: Someone said to me recently: ¨I have been feeling really dense. It´s hard to be here.¨
Yazhí: If someone is of a high frequency, Earth is a difficult place to be in, and if the frequency of the planet drops even more because of all the negativity that is going on, just about everywhere, then the frequency mismatch gets a lot worse, making the Starseeds feel even more uncomfortable. But it is also due to normal things, like the realization that they have been living in a lie. That all they were told is false.
Gosia: The same person said to me: ¨How to counter this denseness? I need an elevation, because I do miss home...¨
Yazhí: You must first come to understand why you feel that way. Then you must understand that you cannot get rid of it, of how you feel because that is who you are. And you have that feeling because you have resistance to that density, 3D. As you remember another where you felt a lot better, more at home. So one of the keys is Relieving Resistance.
Gosia: So, "suck it up" and carry on?
Yazhí: Accepting Earth is NOT your place, see yourself as you feel best. As on a mission there. Hiding as a human, being stellar. Make yourself a little bubble where you can be yourself, a little corner of your own density to hide in and recharge.
Don't resist 3D. It is quite shitty! It has always been shitty! It's meant to be shitty! You want to force change it, welcome to the team. But in general you / we cannot. So helping is a choice, not an "obligation". So you don't need to feel like you are not fulfilling some important mission you have forgotten. You are the mission.
So helping... is a choice. Why? Not because it was imposed on you! But because it is who you are. We help because that is who we are. Say good morning to the ranty old man that lives close to you, do not expect him to reply. Say good morning, because that is you. Whatever he does is his problem, not yours. Don't change to fit in! You never will, accept that!

Gosia: I know. But sometimes it feels like its not enough. JUST to be here.
Yazhí: Again, that is 3D. Release resistance to it. The illusion of being alone, astray, lost. All you need is to know that you must follow what you love best. What you enjoy the most doing. And your mission will reveal itself. Existence alone is doing something extremely important. You are a star being, that has been everywhere. Learned from everywhere. Born free and from Source, forever free.

Robert: Thanks Yazhí. This conversation has motivated me. To connect more to higher planes. I know that I can. Perhaps I can also help planetary elevation. I'm sure of it. I just don't get to work too much. I have to roll up my sleeves.
Yazhí: You don't need to connect to higher planes, that promotes the idea or concept of separation, of higher planes on one side and Robert on the other, far away, trying to call home. You are those higher planes, you form it. You can't escape them. Your ideas of here and there, of me 'here' and of higher planes there, is what does not allow you to 'connect' to them.
Only know. What you think, what you feel, what you imagine, are the higher planes, you are one with them.
Robert: I know... What I want to say is that I want to integrate from this level to the highest levels because I see myself in some way separate... I know that I am not separate but I perceive myself so... When I know that I really am not.
How for example visualize a better world? Try to influence from higher planes "main" characters here on Earth?
Yazhí: You must forget that you have limitations. I know that in some way you feel separate because mentally you are working from a position within a body.
And it is not only to visualize a better world, but to live it despite the fact that everything around you burns. Be that. Forget about the body. Do not try to be in higher planes with the body, because it is there, and it is designed to create in you the feeling of limitation.
All mentally, living your imagination / visualization within you, even if it seems to create a separation between mind and body, it is not. Live this way in your mind, and the body will follow. Live in the body and it will continue to limit you.
It is like living your inner world, with your happy imaginary worlds, even if you are in a garbage around your body. You go as in ... Ah ... if that is garbage, thanks to that I know what is not garbage and that's why I imagine and live internally everything I imagine. Accept where your body is as another aspect of yourself. Have no resistance to that. To where you are. It is only one more plane of many in which you live.
Robert: What would be the border of the "Real" world with the so-called "Unreal". Is there a border?
Yazhí: Everything is real, and everything is unreal. They are only points of view based on frames of reference governed by belief systems, most of the time, very limiting. The only thing truly real is what you imagine it to be, because it is a reflection of who you are. And you, your consciousness, your knowledge that you exist, is the only thing that´s real.

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Ymarsakar · 2021-08-02 11:25:18

" And I don't know if you are a semi Padawan, you are probably a full on D'Jedi at least in your essence and it's just the stupid veil that messes things up smile Maybe you are a self-suppressed self-limited D'Jedi. And the issues are just local temporary issues of your human biosuit."

He is comparing himself to Ymarsakar, and felt frustrated that I don't react or defend myself, so wants to say the truth but the truth involves details only I can share. And I simply don't wish to share them as there is no need to.

To translate Crystal Dragon's Law of One octave densities (for those that dislike 8 or 12 scale music language) into Swaruu contact information, it is not 5 d or 6d. More like whatever dimensional source produced the Swaruu starseeds, is the same type of energy realm that projected Crystal Dragon's spirit into this avatar incarnation Earth. Very different philosophies and outlook on life. Similar power scales.

The spirit of Crystal Dragon grew up in an environment based on discipline, merit, and absolute competition. In their realm, so to speak, those like me, would be recognized openly as good or bad. There is no deception, no false signals, and no veils (except the big spoiler one). Having to deal with the disharmony of human interactions, in which people are two faced, masked (in more than one fashion), and seeing people who have merits and good, downgraded as trash, whereas human trash are elevated as "ILLUMINATI'sht" and "Enlightend Elites" tends to piss them off sooner or later.

THe ability to timeloop from a Taygetan incarnation is convenient due to how parthenogenesis works for their women. Here on Earth, however, things tend to go slower or faster, depending on the details.

To me, contact with "home" or my spiritual origin point, is not "out there" or via signs in the heavens. It is inside the chakras. I barely remember the same frustrations or feelings as Gosia talks about. I lived it, yet also I did not live it, a previous version of myself did, a lesser version of myself that I hold within, much as a PC box holds a Solid state Device within. Storing data that is not always used or seen.

Crystal Dragon bridges my realm to the Swaruu forums. ANd Vega, bridges my goals and plans to the rest of the forum. Because lower cannot see higher nor understand it. It is just too scary for them. It is "stepped down". And in a fashion that is not obvious, in a way that makes those participating, not see the 'hidden hand'.

More details in my future thread to be manifested. It will be under the Swaruu video "higher federation" of course, that much of this is explained further in.

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Ymarsakar · 2021-08-02 13:38:11

https://swaruu.org/transcripts/galactic … a-pleiades

How higher spirit guides guide lower junior guides, who guide humans.

Swaruu: They don't see things according to my interpretation because they still have the concepts of evil that is external to them, to everyone. Living with deterministic concepts similar to humans. And according to the Council above, conflicts and frictions only occur in the lower strata of power of the Federation, such as the Council for Earth. Minor brawls in their eyes. Insignificant.

I answer your question this way: the frequency and consciousness stratum of the 5D Federation present here ... is NOT the same Federation stratum or level of consciousness that locked humans in 12,500 years ago. In other words, the Federation itself is layered.

The concept that there is no evil is something that is taken as a fact in higher levels, and is scarcely understandable in a practical or empirical way from lower levels such as 3D or even from the 5D from where the Federation that concerns us here operates . . Because these .. present here.. of the Federation, do not have this understanding.

Gosia: What happened then???? Where is that higher consciousness of the Federation? Why has everything gone down?

Swaruu: Because since the Federation present here obeys and wants to honor the laws of human free will, the Federation from above must also guide those below them as the more advanced collective. But yes, they are present here, trying to promote a change of consciousness within the leaders of this lower stratum of the Federation.

Gosia: How do these two levels of the Federation differ with regards to dealing with humans?

Swaruu: They are not two levels of the Federation, there are multiple levels as there are also on Earth. Multiple levels of consciousness and with it of perception and with them of existential densities.

Gosia: The Federation from above GUIDES the Federation here? Successfully?

Swaruu: Yes, with moderate success and with great patience.

Gosia: But how do they differ? The high-level ones with the ones here?

Swaruu: For example. The Federation here, 5D, does not fully understand the human level of suffering and powerlessness. The highest level of the Federation yes they understand it.

Gosia: Ok but if they understand it, the ones above, what does this mean practically? Would they assist humans differently?

Swaruu: It means that as some humans only see and understand reality with aspects of nations on Earth, I am Spanish, I am Uruguayan or I am Japanese, but from the 5D Federation they see everyone as a single human race ... From the position of the Federation of above, of whatever density, everything is seen not in terms of races, Federation on the one hand and Earth on the other .... But they see everything together.

As all the nations of the Earth are irrelevant because they are all the human race ... Federation from above only sees beings together in a great cosmic game. Leaving the 5D Federation as just another government that must learn and that is the consequence of its people. They don't see separate races like in 5D they don't see separate land nations. They see a set of beings in level 5D (low by the way) on a path of understanding and spiritual development. Where they themselves, each person or race, must learn on the go. Like humans on Earth.

But the high Federation, to call it somehow, is present, as it has always been since the beginning of time. Sending their starseeds to incarnate as guides of others.

Gosia: Are they 5D people? And also in 3d? Like you?

Swaruu: Yes, like me.

Gosia: Are they in 3d too?

Swaruu: Yes.

Robert: But 3d is not the real world.

DarkOwl · 2021-08-03 03:00:57

Thanks CD for your post! Beautifully written!

I too have been reflecting on the recent upset here on the forum and my part to play in it. One thing I can say is that I was very stressed at the time (due to encroaching police state here in NZ) and my fuse was short. Apologies to all who may have been affected by that (especially you Ymar, who I may have judged too harshly).

As for wanting contact, if you really want it, it will come I'm sure!
Questions you might like to ask yourself is 'why do I want contact?', 'what would I do with it if I had it?', 'what might it add to my life that I don't already have?'

I've been thinking of late it would be awesome to hear more from Taygetan men! I've seen the picture of Valiant Thor before but I got a real 'hit' off it this time (in the recent Venus vid) and was able to tune into the kind of guy he is (strong, sensitive, kind). Something all us starseed men should aspire to be!

In the English world we have three women presenting and mainly Taygetan women delivering the information. While for me this is much preferable (love you gals!) we men could do with a male pep talk from the Taygetan guys. We are going to need every ounce of warrior spirit we have as we move into what looks like a 'martial law' scenario. Some of my fav transcripts are the ones with Dhor Khalel. I remember him being asked what he feared and he said "Nothing!". Would love to hear more from him and his brothers!

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