Greetings all forum members, I would like to share it with you
Throughout my life I have been gathering information on everything about alien races and mysticism in bits and pieces, I have always been attracted and interested in it.

My life has gone exactly as described in one of Swaruu's posts, a complete lack of understanding of you when you are born into a maximum boiling cauldron.
You are born in a completely different country unlike your relatives and all ethnic earthly kin, your mother has 5 brothers and 1 sister all of them in 1 country, you have no brothers and sisters and those cousins all their dozens are in another country, that is you are all alone. You are born before 9 months in a completely different country. The father leaves at the stage of pregnancy and you stay with your mother. You have a stepfather who is extremely harsh, a man burdened with religious and military beliefs and mentally inadequate. (it's very hard)

It's like you've been deliberately cast aside from all other relatives and you've been singularly peculiarly born here.
You encounter reality on the way of life when you get to school where children are very aggressive, dominant, not understanding, more outrageous to see such things from teachers, becoming a white crow.
Then everything tries to break you and adjust you to this earthly system, to put you on a financial drug that you have to work off otherwise you can't survive, and it's hard to get it.

On the way of growing up you are faced with even more difficult moments of life people.
You are seen as an overly soft, overly kind person who is not able to be like all adults, with aggression and cruelty where necessary. The situation heats up with military actions in the country and you become a hostage of this whole matrix world and there is no place to move.
My acquaintance with the extraterrestrial appeared when I was 15 years old, when communicating with a psychologist we talked about the higher self, it became the starting point of my development, then I began to look for information carefully filtering with my inner gut, I came across different channelings, some I rejected others I accepted, Information about alien races from different sources, books that were collected in bits and pieces at different times as if they were poked under your nose so that you could see and read them for example:
-Susan Reed - The Body Snatchers
-The Prison Planet Handbook
-Barbara Marciniak - Family of Light
-Barbara Marciniak - Earth. Pleiadean keys to the living library
-Sal Rachel - Soul Integration
*and other books and materials ...

I took it all as natural, I was not surprised and did not laugh, I really understood the existence of these things and accepted them, but could not share them with anyone, it would seem that in front of you appears information that before others will not pass even in the course of their lives.
Even the Swaruu site I came across in an amazing way, I searched hard and long on the internet for mentions of how to initiate contact with alien races, and miraculously I came across Reddit and a link to this site where I found tons of material and after studying it in detail I feel that it really resonates with me and it's close to me and I'm happy about that.

Based on these features I can conclude that maybe I have a contract, in addition to this I noticed a peculiarity of moles on my face there are 7 of them and they are very much like a cluster of Pleiades stars, as if to let you know where you are from.

And of course the last thing that alerted me was one Spiritual session that was organized for me at one time, a woman introduced herself to me, she was my mother's great-grandmother and told me why I was here, that I was here for a mission, I asked what kind of mission? She answered: To pray and to bring light. We begged you and we love you.
I found it a little surprising what love is when you are in a corner.
You can change the way you feel about a situation, but physically it will weigh on you.

At the same time I have a question for those in the know, please tell me how can I break the contract?
I do not have any attachments, claims of anger against anyone in my life, I just want to end it now, how to break this contract or leave the body going beyond the earth, how to approach it correctly or how to address those who are watching me so that they hear me, that I pass and want to end it all.
Simply put how to end the earth incarnation being alive.
Thank you, with respect to all.

P.s: I'm a Millennial born in the late 90's)